Karie on Jul 27th 2008 02:49 pm
Since I was about 15 I’ve always felt like wherever I am in life is the best.Â â€śLife can’t possibly get any better than where I am right now.â€ťÂ I’ve thought that now for 15 years straight, and continue to prove myself wrong at every turn.
I remember the stress I felt when I graduated from high school.Â I had attended the same school my entire life - Kindergarten through my Senior year. Wore the same plaid uniform, and hung out with the same kids, whose parents were my teachers.Â I absolutely loved my high school years, and leaving that comfort zone was a big deal.
I then went to college, and behold, I loved that too.Â I met Scott, made new friends, learned some stuff, and didn’t really want to leave, so I went back for graduate school.Â For the next several years I worked for a company I loved, amongst great friends.Â Scott and I got married, added Penny Lane to the family, moved a few times, relocated to San Diego, and our careers continued to advance… it just kept getting better and better and better.Â Just when I thought life couldnâ€™t be improved upon, we moved to Spain.Â A full year of the most amazing adventures that I still can’t believe I actually experienced.
When I look back, I feel like it was all easy.Â In reality, we worked extremely hard to get where we are, and there were definitely some challenging times along the wayâ€¦ and that’s when my dad reminds me that I had the same struggle at each one of my previous transitions between my â€śbest phases.â€ťÂ There’s always the fear, stress and anxiety, but once I get through that, I forget about it.Â I guess it’s good to have both perspectives.Â I love feeling like life can’t get any better than this very moment, but when I forget the growing pains I start to take the growth for grantedâ€¦ or worse, actually start to believe that life really can’t get any better, and that’s just absurd.
If it had not been for all the other times that I consciously thought “This is the best phase of my life… No, wait, now THIS is the best…”, I would probably be depressed that our year in Spain is almost over, and we will be going home in about six weeks.Â The good news is that I love home too, and I know our best days are ahead of us.
So I guess my rambling is more or less in response to a comment that my good friend Sarah left on our guestbook a few weeks ago. In typical Sarah fashion, there were more questions that followed, but for now Iâ€™m only attempting to answer the first few:
# sarah on 22 Jun 2008 at 6:27 pm
â€śHey Guys! (I think this one is for Karie, with Scottâ€™s valuable input, of course.) As if you donâ€™t have enough to do, I was thinking maybe you should write a blog about what you are feeling right now. Trip winding down, ready to go home, still havenâ€™t done (blank), whateverâ€¦â€ť (conâ€™t)
When I received her comment we were traveling through the region of AndalucĂa in southern Spain.Â Her questions stuck in my mind as we were on the train to Ronda, and when I turned my iPod on, the first song that played summed up how I felt at the moment:
Did you listen to it?Â I know, I know, Iâ€™m embarrassed at my own cheesiness, but itâ€™s so true!Â Â I feel good about it!Â For once in my life, Iâ€™m even (mostly) ok with the unknown.Â Right now, I can honestly say that I have no clue where Iâ€™ll be in 2 months.Â Job, cars, houseâ€¦ No tengo nada!!!Â But I think Iâ€™ve finally learned that God has a plan for us thatâ€™s so much better than anything I could ever come up with on my own, and I’m at peace with that.Â Iâ€™m feeling good.Â Birds flying high, you know how it is.
(Dad, you can remind me about this when we move home and Iâ€™m upset that we have no furniture.)
To further answer Sarahâ€™s questions, I could always come up with more that I couldâ€™ve or shouldâ€™ve done with my time here.Â For example, I do regret not working harder to become fluent in Spanish this yearâ€¦ but then I give myself the advice I used to give my clients:
â€śStop should-ing all over yourself.â€ť
As far as new experiences go, weâ€™ve done everything we set out to do this year, and more.Â We just have a few short trips to squeeze in (which I will certainly blog about), but for the most part our last six weeks will be in Barcelona, spending as much time as possible with the friends that weâ€™ve made here.Â Iâ€™ve written a ton of new goals for things I want to see and do later in life (we’re definitely not done traveling!), but my more immediate focus is to wrap up the best phase of my life, in preparation for our new best phase.